Following my series on YouTube, The Conception Diaries, following our attempts to get pregnant, I am thrilled to say that after nearly 4 years of trying, 2 losses and one failed IVF attempt, our dream has finally come true and our baby is due in July 2017.
Because I have been too tired to vlog, I have kept a written diary of what has happened so far and will go back to vlogging just as soon as I can!
Three nights without Ross
I knew that this would probably be the most trying week of my pregnancy so far. Ross was away in London and Berkshire on business from Monday until Thursday – but I was so grateful to have Grace with me!
The first evening, after school, Grace and I had to go to the shops to pick up some food. She would not let me carry a thing and shouted at me if I tried to! Then, we came home and she unpacked everything as well as helping me make the dinner.
Come injection time, I decided that I would need to go it alone. Usually, when Ross ‘stabs me’ as he calls it, Grace holds my hand. Having to do it myself is a whole different kettle of fish as I like to try and focus on what I am doing. It takes me a while but I get there in the end!
The following evening I had a huge headache! I cooked dinner for the two of us and found, for the first time this pregnancy, that I just couldn’t eat it because of the overwhelming nausea. I persevered and eventually finished it. I went upstairs to do my injection and came down again to find that Grace had cleaned all the kitchen surfaces. Bless her, she has been so supportive.
An early night
With my headache getting worse on the Tuesday evening, I decided to go bed when Grace did at around 8.45pm. I read for quite a while but found that the early evening rest did me the world of good.
Due to the fact that Louise, my acupuncturist, had no available appointments at my usual place in Dorchester, I arranged to go to her clinic in Weymouth instead on the Thursday. It meant a slightly longer trip but I have found this whole treatment process totally worth it. I arrived and was really impressed! Her clinic is opposite Weymouth harbour and the bridge and it is beautiful.
As she took my pulses, she confirmed that everything felt absolutely fine. She told me that she had concerns about one lady she had treated in her early pregnancy and she told her to make sure that she rested. This person took her advice and all is fine with her now being 14 weeks pregnant.
As I was laying down and relaxing, Louise put some music on – something she doesn’t normally do in Dorchester as there is no facility for it, plus there are other rooms with other patients. As I lay there, the last song to come on was ‘Fix You’ by Coldplay. This is a song I associate with my first miscarriage. At first I wondered whether I should tell her to move it on but then I thought no, I would turn this into a positive instead – and listened to the song in a different way feeling that this baby was the one to come along and ‘fix’ me.
Ross is home
I was so pleased to have Ross back on the Thursday evening – he was a sight for sore eyes! After telling him about all the support Grace had given me, he renewed her RSPCA membership. Originally she was going to pay for it but Ross decided to make it his treat.
Whilst my headaches and upset stomach continue, the extreme tiredness seems to be fading. I am snoring for England at the moment and I am making an awful lot of noise in my sleep. Poor Ross!