Yesterday, at around 7.15pm, I looked out of our conservatory window to see one of the closest, most beautiful rainbows I have seen in my life. It was so close and so perfect, it was really difficult to capture but I managed to use the panorama setting on my iPhone and did the best I could. This was across our back garden above our neighbour’s house.
It the was the end to a day where I felt different, where I felt like things had changed….for the better.
Yes, it had been a year since I had started my blog and I felt more ‘credible’ in what I was doing and trying to achieve. But there was more to it than that.
On Saturday, Ross, Grace and I went for a wonderful afternoon tea at the Royal Marriott Hotel. Grace was beautifully behaved and I am so proud of her and her manners. She is getting lots of compliments from her teachers at school. I felt so close to both Ross and Grace and we had two fabulous photos taken. This one is of the three of us, showing just how close we have become as a family:
The second is a special moment between Grace and Ross, and the loving way they are looking at each other:
Then, something happened yesterday that made me cry – in a good way.
My Ex asked if he could talk to me when he dropped Grace back after having had her for the day, and I agreed. Once Grace had gone inside, I sat in his car to talk to him. Then, something happened that I never believed ever would. He apologised to me for putting me through years of hell. For being, as he put it ‘ a complete arsehole’ and making my life a misery. He also said that he felt like he had got his comeuppance as a result. Whilst I remain somewhat sceptical about what he said, for the first time in I can’t remember how long I actually feel a sense of relief. Like I knew I wasn’t wrong for so long and that he has finally admitted he is. He told me that he knows that I have been brought up properly, am well-educated and have good manners, and the same goes for Ross. As a result, Grace is this way too. Of course, we have a number of bridges to cross yet but, finally, I feel like things may just have turned a corner…..and I feel that the rainbow at the end of the day was the people I love up there, watching over me and telling me that everything was going to be OK….
This week I am linking up with Charly over at PODcast Grappling with a box of frogs and Whats the Story.