So, here I am. A blogger. Or is that writer? Or is that one and the same?! It’s funny because I swore I would never start a blog because I felt that I should be a ‘private’ person. But the way of the world these days is that everyone knows your business and what is going on because of the Internet and Facebook and Twitter and the like. Besides, you can divulge as much or as little information as you choose to see fit. So why on earth wouldn’t I!
I live in Wokingham, Berkshire with my partner Ross Williams and my daughter, Grace, who is 5 years old. They are both real characters and are always make me laugh with the double act they seemed to have formed! We moved in with Ross at the beginning of April. I have had an interesting and varied life. I was married at 21. It didn’t work out. I was then with Grace’s father for 12 years and we broke up when Grace was only 3 months and I had to move in with my very supportive and caring Mum. Then, when Grace was 4, Ross and I got together.
I am the eldest of 7 children. Goodness only knows how my Mother did it! I am grateful to her for an endless list of her qualities. Patience (I guess that sort of came with being the eldest), manners, respect of other people and their feelings, empathy and kindness. I also have her to thank on opening my eyes to just how much hard work kids are. I was changing nappies at the age of 9 and I always knew having one of my own was a huge responsibility. My Mum and my Father had a very rocky relationship and I am pleased to say that she now has a lovely man in the form of Ian, aka Stepdad even though they aren’t married. I have put my relationship with my Father in a small box and there on the shelf it will stay until I choose whether or not to open it again.
I am pleased to say that Ross came along when I had decided that if I never found anyone else then it wouldn’t be a problem! Therefore proving to me that I was ready to have the ‘right’ sort of relationship. Not one that was controlling or destructive. We both are very realistic and know that if things don’t work out, if we aren’t happy then either one of us can choose to walk away. Save to say that I hope that never happens.
I am proud to say that I have achieved many things in my life so far. I’ve acted on stage and screen. I’ve sung songs on stage which I co-wrote the lyrics to. I’ve been a Driving Instructor for over 9 years now and as a result I have my own business. I’ve represented myself in Court on two occasions. One of which I had to study breach of contract law for and, with help from my sister-in-law, I prepared the Court case, presented it to the Judge and won! I’ve produced and directed the pantomime ‘Cinderella’ for the Quince Players (the drama group which I am pleased to have been involved with for over 20 years). This Pantomime was nominated for a NODA award in the London region and we were runner-up out of 15 areas and numerous other drama groups.
So, with all these rich and varied things that have kept me busy, you’d think I’d be satisfied with my lot, right? Wrong! I am continuously striving for more, for better, for higher. I would really love to become a successful Actor and Presenter and I am really making great in-roads to getting there now. I also have a great love of music and still write lyrics and poems. Will anyone ever take them up? Who knows?! But I am not giving up on those either.
What I am excited about, for the first time in my life, is my future. I now know after what I have experienced that I really am capable of anything I put my mind to. This I put down to the people I have around me. I have a daughter who I need to support and be there for and a partner who is encouraging and always coming up with ideas and ways to do things. Ross is as much a motivator to me as I believe I am to him. He and I seem to have achieved so many things in just the last year that it makes me wonder what on earth we are going to do next! I also feel a part of the closest members of my family again – something my ex continuously tried to alienate me from and I am ashamed to say that for years I let him control me to that extent.
One thing I have learned – particularly over this last week is just how important time is. I have started to listen to an audio book as I travel from lesson to lesson called ‘How to be Smart with your Time’ by Duncan Bannatyne (yep, one of the ‘Dragons’!). It was given to me as a Christmas present by Ross last year but I have never seemed to have found the time to listen to it! Its great. It really is helping me to understand just what a precious commodity time really is. You can’t buy it back so you need to spend it wisely. So, I have started to prioritise my life better and really understand the true meaning of the saying ‘How do you eat an elephant? In bite-sized chunks’!
With the time theme in mind, the CD also helped put into perspective what I really want out of my life and how to go about it. So, I have started to get rid of the things I don’t need in my life including material possessions and keep close and treat properly the things I want to nourish so that I can really have the life I strive for – thus giving those closest to me the same thing!
You see? It’s all for the greater good!