Last week – on the 15th September to be precise – I completely forgot to mark the fact that I have now been blogging for four years but I guess that really shows just where I am with my blog. The anniversaries still mean something to me but I don’t feel the need to shout it from the rooftops anymore. I feel that my blog is now just ‘there’. A place where people can come to read, if and when they feel the need (I may have to use that line in my poem this week!). I find I am far busier with my work as a Social Media Manager as well as putting together a website for my photography – the love for which I have re-discovered thanks to my blog. Whilst I want to make sure that this space doesn’t ‘suffer’ from neglect, I certainly don’t have the over-obsession with it that I used to.
Blogging was a majorly exciting thing for me when I first started out. I was hungry for more all of the time. Whenever I received an email opportunity, I jumped on it and in the blink of an eye I would respond as soon as I possibly could to make sure I didn’t miss out – even if I was out and about! Now, things have evolved. I am much calmer about the whole thing. If someone else gets something that I would have liked, I am happy for them – not that I wasn’t before – but now I don’t care if I don’t get offered it too. The saying ‘What’s for you, won’t pass by you’ has never been as prevalent in my life as it is now. When I get offered opportunities I want to make sure that they are right for me and my family. What do I get in return? Is it worth it? Are they paying me for my time (if necessary)? Is it something I can use/need/I want/we will enjoy? I make sure that my blog works for me, rather than the other way around.
I have seen so many get so wound up about things over the years. There have been arguments, bitchiness, fallings-out and quite frankly I find it all a massive shame. I am very much a live and let live person. I don’t begrudge any one anything and I would like to hope that they don’t do that of me too. I didn’t start any of this to get involved in any playground politics…but I digress. Talking about the dark side isn’t something I want to dwell on because, of course, there is a very supportive, happy side as well. I have seen so many use their platforms for good. Whether it be for charity, raising awareness or supporting other people.
I guess what I am trying to say is that I am finally in a good place with my blog. I don’t look at it as the be-all and end-all of who I am. I just look it now as a place where I can share some of my life, make a little bit of money, write some poetry and share some photographs. If anyone wants to have a read or a look then I am truly grateful. If they don’t, well, that is entirely up to them. I am not obsessed with the stats anymore – and haven’t been for quite a while now actually!
I am happier now with my blog design than I have ever been. I don’t feel the need to tinker with it or mess around with the layout. I am happy with the logo as it is very ‘me’.
In previous years, I ran a whole load of giveaways to celebrate. Last year I set myself 3 blogging goals. To include more ‘free from’ recipes, to improve my photography and to do more vlogging and videos. I can safely say that I have definitely achieved the last two and some of the first one. I am happy with what I have done.
In respect of the vlogging, there is still a journey to share and, even though I have not recorded any for a while, the Conception Diaries will be back as we enter the next phase of our fertility treatment.
I shan’t be setting any blog goals for this year as I feel I have enough of my own personal ones to achieve but I will still be here, sharing and writing, vlogging and chatting on social media. Because, yes, I am happy with this space. I feel it is a part of, and not the whole of, me.